Mini manifesto

I know what I want and I express it
I know what I need and I express it
If you cannot meet my needs, that’s ok
Our relationship may need some readjustment
If you punish or abuse me when I express my needs, that’s never ok
I don’t tolerate abusive or toxic behaviour

Dick pic

Oops
I did it
I sent her a pic of my dick
I said: “I wish I could show you”
As if I needed her permission
As if I didn’t know how
Even though I had a phone in my hand
One with a camera
And the internet too
She didn’t respond
So I guess she meant “yes”
And in any case
I wanted to show her
So I did
I did it
Oops
I sent her a pic of my dick
Because it turns me on
It makes me so hard
Someone else looking
At my dick
Yes

I’m afraid to die

I’m afraid to die
Because I haven’t lived yet
Except as a faint projection —
A shadow of a puppet
On a screen
In a story of your making
Except as a malleable marshmallow —
Skewered and toasted over coals
Set on fire
Blistered and consumed
Except as a peripheral spectre —
Haunting you with words
Like the ones I write now
And which you can’t stop me writing
Unless you were to kill me —
But I’m already dead
Which is why
I’m afraid to die
Because I haven’t lived yet
And I want to
Before I have to die again

courage

you didn’t have the courage to start it
and you didn’t have the courage to end it
and in between you didn’t even have the courage to find out who i am
or to make plans
or to love me
or to thank me
or to even say goodbye

you didn’t have the courage to respect me
and you didn’t have the courage to respect her either
and you still don’t
i’m sure she is none the wiser
apart from that echo she feels in her heart

but i rest easy in my core (mon coeur)
as my heart is true
and courage my core (courage mon coeur)
and i loved you

i told my whole heart to you
and you closed your ears
coward

relinquish

sometimes things pile up
so much that you realise
you have no control
so you relinquish
all efforts to rein things in
and you just breathe out
you might even laugh
at the sheer absurdity
of being human