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No
My first word
So cute!
They all say
Hahaha
They all laugh
You were so bossy
They frown

I’m proud
Smile within
Glad my ginger
Baby head
Was filled with fire
Extinguished soon after
Returning only
In fits and starts
Over decades
The memory of her
No
Kept me going

Here’s the rub:
Yes saved me
When no would have
Signalled my death
Or starvation
Or ridicule
Or failure at school
Or the death of
A job
Or a home
Or a bed
No sometimes means dead

But:
Even when we say no
You always hear yes
You laugh at my no
And I die at my yes
You yell at my no
And I die at my yes
You plead at my no
And I die at my yes
You hit at my no
And I die at my yes
You fuck me at no
And I die, I say yes
Yes, yes, yes, yes, yes
Fucking yes

No means I exist
Yes means I subsist
No means I resist
Yes means please desist

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